‘Chose the wrong life’: Celeb’s sad message



“I find that often there is a deep sadness inside me that no amount of worldly pleasure can touch, a loneliness, an emptiness,” Halsey, who uses she/they pronouns, wrote on Instagram.“I wonder often if I chose the wrong life for myself, they added atop a photo of burning candles.“And the weight of it is suffocating. I’m sorry that melancholy has penetrated my art in a way that hasn’t served a greater purpose other than my own self-loathing.“I am approaching my 28th birthday in a week and just now exhaling and gasping for air for the first time since I took a single breath in this new life at 18. A breath that was meant to sustain me for a decade.“I am wandering lawlessly, and I hope to find my way somewhere meaningful soon so that I can give you the guts I’ve always known to scoop heapings of into your ears. They are shrivelling lately.“If you cannot be kind, at least be gentle.”Halsey has always been open about their battle with bipolar disorder after they attempted suicide and were admitted to a psychiatric hospital at the age of 17.“I’ve been committed twice since (I became) Halsey, and no one’s known about it. But I’m not ashamed of talking about it now,” the singer told Rolling Stone back in 2019.“It’s been my choice. I’ve said to (my manager), ‘Hey, I’m not going to do anything bad right now, but I’m getting to the point where I’m scared that I might, so I need to go figure this out.’ It’s still happening in my body. I just know when to get in front of it.”In addition to dealing with their mental health in recent years, Halsey has also been diagnosed with a plethora of physical health issues.In May, they revealed they’d been diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, Sjogren’s syndrome, mast cell activation syndrome and postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome following a series of hospitalisations.“I’ve been looking for answers to the root cause of some of these things, which may be an auto-immune disease. And I know I’ve had auto-immune issues for most of my life, especially having endometriosis,” they reassured fans on Instagram, adding that they didn’t “want anybody to be worrying”.This story originally appeared on The New York Post and has been republished with permission.Mental health support

Originally published at www.news.com.au

Subscribe
Notify of
guest

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

0 Comments
Inline Feedbacks
View all comments

Recent Articles